It’s over … almost.
As our fight with pen, paper and time reached its final leg it was going to be all over for us. But as faith will have it in a fitting tribute to the past four years something unexpected happened… again! So while everyone was but taking “final” snaps, being nostalgic, being sad as well as excited at the same time I was in a totally different state. I was indifferent because for me the last hurdle was till to be crossed.
This gave me a good opportunity to observe others and realizing once again that what perceives the eye is not always true. For the scenes after the “last” exam was a sight to behold. The various emotions were all out there in the open. I realized for the first time that we may actually want something very bad and be very eager to get it, but when we finally achieve it we realized that it was the journey that stole our hearts, mesmerized our souls, got the adrenaline rushing whereas the end result was just a consequence of the journey which was to occur sooner or later but had no real importance.
We were all to become engineers. We were all destined to leave the place when we first landed here. But somehow we all valued the end result more. I remember having thought about the “future” in my first year itself. I remember having thought- when this will be over I will enter the “good” life. I remember making plans about the distant future, so distant that when the future finally became the present the idea became obsolete. I felt like kicking myself for having worried so much. I felt like punishing myself for not living in the moment. So now as everyone lined up to bid their final goodbyes, to take their final bow and someone asked me “how are feeling now that it is over?” I smiled back and corrected him and replied “It is not yet over, at least not for me”.
For seeing people realize that it is all over it made me think that even I will end up in this state very soon. But until that day comes I will not think about it. I will not stop enjoying the present by trying to anticipate the future. When it is over it will be over, but it is not over yet. So I will carry on in my merry ways keeping in mind the fact that it will be all over soon which will hopefully drive me to enjoy the present even more.
So because of another stupid action by our administration it is not yet done and dusted with for me. Although it is irritating that such silly things happen again and again but keeping in mind Dr Phil’s philosophy I am able to look at it from a different perspective
-IT IS NOT OVER YET- KEEP ENJOYING.
My Last Hurdle is still standing tall and I will take my own sweet time to knock it down. :-P
Yesterday is history
Tomorrow is a mystery
Today is a gift
That is why it is called the present
3 comments:
Very true Bidu, like you I will live every moment and relive the moments I loved when I reminisce later. I know what thoughts were rushing into your mind when you wrote this. I too will be writing something similar but you raced me to it. :) Cool! Nothing is over and the things that you want to stay will stay. (Like mountains in spring time. There is a beautiful word for spring in Hindi. :P).
a very keen observation - living in the moment seems to the current mantra of our batch.
very nice n realistic..nly 2 yrs left dis side 2 in being called an engineer..loved d post!
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